Saturday, November 17, 2007

Life is constantly changing

Warning: this is definitely the post of a music nerd. Future posts may not be so musically saturated.
Since this is my first post, I'll say a little on my current title, "Life is a Symphony." When you play in a symphony someone else wrote it, and someone else is conducting it. You don't have a whole lot of control. You're job is to play what you're given to the very best of your ability and as much in sync with those around you as you possibly can. And trust that those around you are doing the best they can. That's what makes the whole thing come together to make a beautiful piece of music.
Comparing this to life, I believe we definitely have a Heavenly Father giving us the music to play, or the experiences to live, and bringing the people into our lives that we are supposed to play, work, and learn with.
It's just a matter of trusting the composer and conductor. I'm lucky to have had good experiences with people in both of these fields in my life. It's also amazing how after you play a piece of music you somehow feel closer to whoever wrote it, even if they've been dead for over 200 years. I think if we really trust that our life has a plan just like we trust that the music in front of us is part of a greater whole, then we can be closer to God.
I've been feeling lately like life is constantly changing, and I suppose it is. But if we compare life to a symphony; the first time I play through a symphony it sometimes seems that the music is coming from nowhere. I don't really know what to expect, and it can sometimes seem random. But after playing a symphony, or listening to it countless times you could start it in the middle, then pause it and I would be able to tell you exactly where it's going. And the more music you know the more likely you are to understand where a piece is going on your first listening. But then the differences of the piece become exciting instead of confusing or frustrating.
We really are on our first time through life. The trick is to look for patterns and anticipate the unexpected turns instead of resisting them.
This is mostly a lecture to myself since my life seems pretty much out of control. DH and I just graduated from college, he's looking for a job and I'm working part time, and just applied for a new full time job that I think would be awesome. But all of this change is scaring me, especially since I have no idea where it will all end up. I guess it's all about trust, that there is a plan for us.